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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

over these past months i think i've grown so much. just from the way i think and stuff. high school, i still dont like it but i'm adjusted. i know how the school works, i know the place. i know how corrupt some students can be too. so much have happened this new school year. many little things, it makes me think about things more. it makes me realize how bad of a person i actually am. sure i dont do drugs and i get good marks but what about for God. what do i do for Him? it seems to me that i'm just any other person in the school. i dont stand out. how can i make myself stand out for God? how do i share with others? what can i do in the school? i've pondered upon these so much. and with friends, how do i love people? even people that i dont like or are
really annoying, how can i show love tothem? high school i realize is a step towards something. everything, the people, the way things work...theyre so diferent from elementary school and junior high. i dont know if i like the change. .... change, ha i never really liked change. i dont like when people change. it happens but i dont like it. sometimes their whole personality changes..sometimes for the worse, it sucks, sometimes its a change of surroundings but whateverr it is its change. i wish i could go back to grade 7 when you didnt really have worries. i had a group of friends that i loved...until they started changing..i know i changed too. change is such a powerful thing. change..ha