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Friday, April 08, 2005

yea..so many things can happen in one day... I realize that there are so many things that people do that can hurt you...and yet they don't even know. They'll know somethings wrong but think it has nothing to do with them, actually it has everything to do with them. And it's more like the one person to me because we used to be close. The others, they were still good friends but we were closer. This one person was someone i looked up to...but they've changed. They don't know how much and it hurts because now i feel rejected. I feel like i'm just part of something that was in the past...we never get to talk anymore cause they're always "busy" Like my last entry, this person would always be like yea i'll be there for you no matter what...really?? Think about it...all the times i've needed them, they don't even know. They don't know how many times i have needed them this past month. They've been too busy in themselves, and whenever i have needed them they were never there...i was just going through this by myself, just stuffing everything inside of me until i breakdown. I never thought that i would lose a friend this way...lose a "friend"...sure we're still friends but we're not sisters anymore...i'll probably go on now, pretending that i'm ok...all cheery and happy and pretend that there's nothing wrong with me.